Dreams 2

I was trying to look up one of the quotes that I mentioned in my previous article, and I ran into a pretty cool article regarding self standards and reaching your potential. Here is the link to it...

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Sunday Herald, The, Mar 10, 2002, by Frank Shapiro

I hope you enjoy it.

Dreams

I was at a writing workshop and the organizer gave us a couple of quotes to write about: “The gap between where you are now and where you want to be is good,” and “Dreams come a size too big so that we can grow into them.” I apologize that I do not know their origins or if I even wrote them down correctly, but they certainly did not come from me. Here is what I wrote…

I have so many dreams. When I was young it was to become a model. Then a singer. Now it is to become successful. But what does success mean to me? I find myself stuck wanting material things, like that cool sedan, or a house with a balcony inside looking over the family room, but I know I have more substance than that.

I know that I have values, like being true to myself, enjoying family and friends, having a riveting conversation with someone – the kind that makes me shake with excitement knowing that I am on the same page as another. But I find that when I lose sight of these values, I go right back to wanting ‘things’.

Sometimes I feel like a kid that has a shiny red ball. I leave it in the corner where it is unappreciated and neglected. But when someone else starts playing with my ball, having fun with it and finding new creative things to do with it, I find that I want the ball back! I want to play with now! I want to copy what I saw that other person doing. Why didn’t I think of doing the cool stuff to it like that other person did? Why didn’t I appreciate it when I had it?

So when I get into this “What do I want to do with my life?”…what dream is a size too big?…where do I want to go?…I find that I want to do too much. I want to be a scientist. An archeologist! A singer! An architect! A web designer! A writer! I want that cool house!

But what do I really want?

I guess I just want to be heard
validated
cared for/about

I want to have something worthwhile to say. I want to move people…help people... I want my life to mean something.

So, I still feel like I do not know what ‘dream’ I am trying to grow into, although I may know but it just hasn’t yet worked itself into my conscience mind. I probably must embrace my current situation – accepting this gap of where I am now and where I want to be. I need to live it, breathe it, and let it go. When I do, I need to learn from it. And like the old adage goes…Success is not about the prize, it is about the journey.

Is it Worth It?

If you are chasing your tail wondering if you will ever find yourself (like I am), and you have started taking the process too seriously, YOU HAVE TO READ THIS ARTICLE! I laughed so hard with every quote from the person being interviewed. And I have to let you know, I am a sucker for profanity – I can’t help but laugh when someone lets their hair down and slips out a four letter word. (Although, in this article the use of the socially unfriendly verbiage wasn’t necessarily ‘slips’, but funny nonetheless.)

Here is someone who had spent decades looking for himself and had decided to give up. The very name of the article “Search For Self Called Off After 38 Years”, as if this were a report on a crime scene is hysterical in and of itself.

Lines that cracked me up the most Well, I don’t want to give too much away, but here are some great lines - “From now on, if anybody needs me, I'll be sprawled out on this couch drinking black-cherry soda and watching Law & Order like everybody else." , and, "The only books I'll be reading from now on are ones that happen to catch my eye in the supermarket checkout line on the few occasions I leave my apartment to buy more Fig Newtons," I will leave the rest for you to read. My more favorite parts have the bad words. LOL!!!!!

Welcome!

This blog will be about self awareness, actualization, appreciation and the like. I do not claim to be an expert at any of them, but since I am so consumed with the subject I thought I would use this as my experiment. Goodness knows that I have researched the topic enough by reading books, magazines, watching videos, meditation, going to group meetings, personal counseling, taking classes… you name it, I’ve done it!

This also gives me an opportunity to try out another blogging tool. My favorite so far has been blog.com, but I want to expand my horizons and use other tools.

I hope you find this a useful place to think your thoughts and explore the ways to learn about yourself. Maybe one of us will eventually become an expert (if you are not already!)

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